Help from some fellow travelers

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I have had a struggle with in me all week.  Struggles in my head.  Stuff like - "Here you go again, this is the beginning of the end, this is how your failure starts, you just can't do it" and also stuff like, "You know you always get to this point in WW and you know you can't make it for the long haul"  these are some of the things I hear being told to myself.  I then hear what a lot of my friends say - I don't like sweets that much, I don't have a problem with doughnuts, and they make it sound like it is so easy.  But then I wonder, "So why do you have a weight problem then, if it's so easy".   I have a little resentment. :(    It's very hard not to get discouraged when you're already hearing negative stuff from your own head and then other people say things like that.  

BUT ---  I have one friend who is doing weight watchers and went on a cruise and actually lost when she came back.  She decided she was going to track everything she ate even if it was beyond her points and she would estimate best she could.  So that is what she did.  Her husband - also a WW - did not track anything and guess what?  He gained.   I have noticed with me even if I have a lousy day and eat more points that I should IF i track them somehow I don't do AS bad.  It's gotta be a mental thing.  If I just stop tracking I have the attitude of "OH WELL, I've messed up already, so I might as well just go for it all".  I then eat more than if I were tracking.  So that is one big encouragement.

The other thing I did was look back at Annie's blog when she first started and noticed she had a lot of my same issues.  THANK YOU LORD!!!  I saw she had some gains initially and she pulled through it.  She didn't give up and quit!!     Her struggles were similar to mine, in that she wanted to eat everything in sight!  I for some reason just needed to know that there was someone (outside of our family) that had/has the same problem and had been successful at losing a lot of weight.  So THANK YOU ANNIE!!!!! 

     DO NOT EAT THESE COOKIES!!  They contain too many points!
These delicious sugar cookies from the youth church thing yesterday didn't get eaten and they are sitting on top of my fridge, I will have to move them!!  Maybe I should just throw them away.  At any cost I need to stay away from them.  but ....  I love them, they almost taste like a cupcake.

So this morning when I put on my capris they felt looser.  Hmm?  Now I have worn them a couple times so they are stretched out a little but this felt different.  So I weighed..  I don't usually do this but I needed some encouragement to make it through the day and stay within my points.  It looks like I have lost a couple pounds.  Weigh in is tomorrow, I don't want to get my hopes up but I think I have lost this week.  That will help me do a better job.  It's not a hopeless cause.  Maybe I can resist those cookies!!!