Now unto Him that is able to do exceeding abundantly above all that we ask or think, according to the power that works in us, unto Him be the glory! Ephesians 3:20-21


Wednesday, August 1, 2012

what consumes me?

It's been so long that I hardly know where to start.  First of all, I have to say that Kimberlynn, has given me a boost to come back to this.  It was so good to hear where she has been and where she is now on her journey. 

In February of this year, I started really looking at me and the Weight Watchers plan.  I think WW is a great plan and it does work for weight loss BUT  my problem has not been with which plan to do.  It is deeper than that.  In February, God brought me to a place and I saw that food consumes me.   I had been reading about the Rich Young man  and I realized that food is something that I "crave" more than God.    Was I willing to to deny myself and follow God? 
Prior to this my sister had sent me a free link to a book called "Made to Crave",  this particular link was to a devotional type of book for my kindle.  I downloaded it and had been reading that.  Then went and purchased the book.  Also at this time I started thinking about a program I had done years before called Weigh Down.   I knew that these two programs was what I was supposed to look at.  God was telling me that my weight was just an outward symptom of a much bigger issue in my heart.  
 WW was only helping me lose weight and not addressing my heart at all.    So through Weigh Down and Made to Crave and lots of time spent with God.  I am working on my heart.  My weight has stayed right between 181 and 185.   I know that when I get my heart right the weight will come off.  When my focus is not on food and more onto God  -  the weight will come off.
So I am following the Weigh Down principles and reading Made to Crave but really I am just trying to listen to God's voice in what and how much I eat. 
God has been so faithful to show me what path to take.  A lot of times I do have to wait for His answer but He is faithful!!   I feel more at peace about my weight and weight loss plan than I ever have.  I know this is HIS plan.  AND it works!!  Life is so much better when He is at the center!  I still really really struggle but I am learning and He is guiding! 

PSALM 143:8
LET ME HEAR IN THE MORNING OF YOUR STEADFAST LOVE, FOR IN YOU I TRUST.  MAKE ME KNOW THE WAY I SHOULD GO, FOR TO YOU I LIFT UP MY SOUL.