Now unto Him that is able to do exceeding abundantly above all that we ask or think, according to the power that works in us, unto Him be the glory! Ephesians 3:20-21

Saturday, December 10, 2011


What a busy time of life!  You'd think that when one of the kids moves out and the other is hardly ever home that you'd have more time.   I don't know -- I guess I am taking on extra things that I wouldn't have before.  Anyways it's been super busy.

I am trying hard to get a grip on all the things that we've gone through recently.  In the whole scheme it seems silly that I've let this stuff get to me so much.   I have been having the hardest time with getting older!  I think I am down right depressed about it.  I also think that since my routine has been so changed that not taking my anti-depressants has not helped me much.   So in the last couple weeks I have been doing better - some...  

I am just so sad that that part of my life, the part where the kids were small, is over!   It makes me just cry every time I think of it.  Am I the only one????  I am an emotional mess when it comes to this subject! 

I really am glad that Ty is moved out.  It is a good situation and he is doing well and loving his life.  I still have Kaycee at home but she is so independent and wants to stay on the go constantly!  I don't want Ty back home, I know this is what is best for him.
Kaycee is really maturing and that is a good thing.  She is gaining a lot of self confidence and growing in the Lord.  As is Ty...  

SO WHAT IS MY PROBLEM!!!???    I guess it's just change - big change and it seemed to happen so quick and all at once.   I tend to focus on the past and what I don't have now.  It would be good if I could change that.  My friend tells me I just need time.

In the midst of all that we stopped going to WW.  It was so early on Saturday morning and another time together did not work - so we are going to try to continue on our on.  Hmmm, not sure how that will work out.  So far, I have put back on about 5 lbs.  
I'm not going crazy with eating but it's a bad time of year to try to lose!  I started doing bad at WW when Alan started going.  I don't like competition too much.  I think I just kind of gave up when he started losing.  That's something I need to look at - what's up with that? 

I don't want to be sooo focused on food and with WW you have to be.  At the same time if  I am not focused then I tend to eat too much.   AGH... what to do!!

Well that's all the time I have to ramble!!    Gotta get my day going!