Now unto Him that is able to do exceeding abundantly above all that we ask or think, according to the power that works in us, unto Him be the glory! Ephesians 3:20-21

Thursday, June 23, 2011

Old habits die hard

This week has been full of challenges.  I am not doing well keeping up with my tracking and I am eating way too much.  It all started with the graduation party and I haven't been able to get myself back on track yet.

Even though I feel so much better and have reached goals that I didn't believe I would ever be able to reach - I am falling right back into old habits so quickly.  I know that when I eat late in the evening I feel like crap-o-la in the morning.  I love love love being able to fit in smaller clothes.  I love having more energy.  I love the not so full feeling.  I just don't understand why it's so easy to go right back to doing what made me so miserable.   I am trying to sort through this and learn from it. 
1. We had the party -  it threw me off
2. My husband had to go on a business trip this week.
3. We are moving to a different house.  We just decided to move less than 2 weeks ago.  We have to be out by July 1st - so much to do to move.
Those are the big things - there are several smaller issues going on also. 
So what all this means is that I have been very busy and have not planned and have not taken the time to write stuff down.  I am living in a whirlwind.  My friend told me I needed to give myself some grace.  She is probably right.  I just don't want to let this get too out of hand.  I am up a couple of pounds.  I am tired and I need to get some sleep.

Monday, June 20, 2011

Cream Puff Confessions

Saturday we celebrated my son's High schood graduation. I made 5 briskets and my son wanted cheesecake, cream puffs and mini eclairs instead of cake or cupcakes. We sent out about 125 invites and because of it being Fathers Day weekend we didn't have as many people show up as would have if we had done it another weekend. This ended up being a good thing. Not sure how many people did come but I was scared I would run out of food. We didn't, we had just enough and a few left overs.
I ate way - way too many cream puffs, eclairs and cheesecake bites! The brisket was good also but I didn't OD on it like I did the other. So, today, I have been trying to get back on track. I have done pretty good so far.  I had Green Chili Stew instead of a Hamburger and fries... at the Casino   (Mmmm  Green Chili Stew is so good, if you've never had New Mexico Green Chili you don't know what you're missing).   I really wanted that hamburger but decided I would save it for another time when I didn't have such an elaborate weekend.

Went to WW weigh in on Saturday -- before all the cream puffs.. I had lost .4  (hubby lost 1.2)
which I was very excited to lose! I am at 6 weeks with no gains!! I'm a little nervous about the next weigh in - just because of all weekend eating.
After the Grad party on Saturday  - my brother and his wife invited us over for BBQ Ribs on Sunday. OMG, they were so good. I didn't go crazy but I had too much.

I was thinking though.... in the past I would have eaten more and would then beat myself up over it. This time, I did eat too much but I didn't beat myself up and I think because I didn't - I haven't felt so down about it and I have been able to HIT my reset button and move on. That is progress and I am excited about that. My mind set is changing!!

I finally set a goal for myself. I didn't realize you got a little charm for you key ring at 25lbs. I love those little incentives! I had told my husband that when I reached that I'd like a pedicure, but I am not too sure that a  pedicure is a big enough incentive. I mean ... it's a pedicure...  I don't know .... what do you think?

Monday, June 13, 2011

Exercise - a juggling act

Weigh in on Saturday was a success! I was down 1 pound! I have had a loss for the past 5 weeks and I am pretty happy about that. I am still on track for my November goal.

I had a decently good week. I seem to be in a groove for the time. I have not been too tempted by cake and sweets. I just feel like pressing on. For me that is unusual. I hope this means I am growing in my spiritual life. I have been trying to study my Bible everyday and I am writing down 5 of my 1000 gifts each day. Maybe the different focus is helping.

As of this weigh in -- I am at the lowest I have been since the 1980's. Unbelievable. I am so excited to feel better than I do even now. I can't imagine wearing smaller sizes than I have worn in over 20 years. I really am having a hard time envisioning what all that looks like. What I do know is that, so far, what I have been doing is working and I will just continue on doing what I've been doing.

I have been thinking about exercise. I know it is important. One of the things that happened last time I did WW was that I started going to the gym at 5:45am to do a spin class (which I loved) I was getting fitter but I started gaining some weight back. I had a hard time juggling everything and getting up so early and I wasnt able to go to bed earlier because of my kids schedules. It just got to be too much. The other times they offered the spin classes did not work for me and my family. I ended up giving up on both the spin class and WW.
I have this mental picture of me spinning plates and I have WW and all the other things in my life spinning pretty good and if I try to add one more plate(in this case, exercise) I lose all the plates. Do I sound like I am just making excuses?!? I hope not!
As much as I would like to go back to spin classes, I feel the time is just not right - yet. I am losing without going to spin class or doing any scheduled exercise. I am trying to find ways to just get out and be active. I start feeling like I "NEED" to be doing more. I have to keep reminding myself that what I am doing right now is working. There will come a time, maybe soon, when what I am doing doesnt work as well and I may need to figure out a way to get back to the spin classes or whatever.

It has really helped to read Annie's blog about her weight loss journey without much exercise and now she has a desire to exercise. It was like I was given permission to not worry about this yet. Somehow this has really helped me.

Wednesday, June 8, 2011

Posting a comment problem

I have no idea if this will help but I found that I could post a comment to certain people.  Here's what I found.... The blog sites that use the popup window option for comments would allow me to post a comment. Those that didn't have this option it would not let me post...
 (The way you change this is you go to  - Settings -  then Comments then choose the poput window option under Comment form placement. ) I did not have this option checked for mine. 
Some people were still able to post a comment to my blog, so it really doesnt make sense but it's worth a try.   Keelie and Kimberlynn both have the popup window thing and I can post to their blogs.  But I can't post to Joy or Wendys site... ???  

What really matters...

Getting ready for my sons Graduation Party.  We sent out over 100 invites.  We are having it the day before Fathers Day so I am not expecting a lot of people.  But I don't know for sure!  I tend to overdue on everything from cleaning before hand to the food.  I am trying to just get the things done that really matter.   Just need to figure out what those things are.   My husband is power washing the deck..... I did not ask him to do this..... not too sure this is one of those things that matter...  do you hear the sarcasm?  It's fine, though,  if he wants to do that, whatever.  We have such different ideas of what is important and I am trying to realize that for some reason POWER WASHING the deck is important to him.  :-/

I am doing fair this week on my eating.  I think after Saturdays great loss and meeting some big goals I sort of let myself off the hook for a few days.  I really loved the Reset button that Kimberlynn talked about and have used that "thought" several times this week!  Thanks Kimberlyn, I would have posted a comment but well.. you know this thing isn't letting me. 

I did weigh on my scales today.  MY scales say 179 (YAY, below 180) which actually means more like 174 - 175.   It's a small  huge victory to be below 180 on my scales.  I am getting some what nervous about the next few weeks because this is where I quit before.  I want to believe that this time is and will be different. And, already, in a lot of ways it is. 
This blog thing has been huge for me.  To read all y'alls blogs and know that you guys have dealt with a lot of the same issues as I have and you are succeeding - that is a huge motivator.  So that is one of the biggest differences this time.  I have some very close friends who do encourage me but you guys are "like" me.  I relate so well with what y'all are going through ( except for that walking thing ).  To see that you have bad days (weeks) but you don't quit.  I am so very thankful for y'all being honest!! 
I also realize that my head is changing too.  What really matters is that I am getting closer to accepting that this is the way I need to eat for the rest of my life and I am slowly - very slowly - coming to grips with that.

I really need to set some new goals and rewards.  So I think I will start working on that!

Saturday, June 4, 2011

Enjoying the rewards of meeting some goals!

Saturday -- Get up early and weigh in day!    It was worth it today though!!  Several good things. 
1st. - I lost 2.2lbs.   I was scared I wasn't going to lose much, if any,  with the week I had had.
2nd. - that put me at my 10%  -- Yay!  Got my key chain!  love it!
3rd. - I am only .2 of a pound from my lowest weight in over 20+ years!!
4th. - I am a little over half way to my November Goal!!!  My cute little ladybug is at the half way point. :)

I am really stoked at this point and cant wait to be below my all time low.  I had a rough week and I was able to make it through, successfully.   The week before was not a good week as far as keeping my points at a low and I went out several times that week.  So I know that in the two weeks combined I actually did well.  I did keep my food tracker current and wrote down EVERYthing - even if I hated to admit I had eaten it.   
I will continue to do what I am doing and find ways to set my goals in front of me and make some new small goals and rewards.

Also,  another great thing today.  My husband and daughter have started going to WW also.  This was my husbands 3rd week and my daughters 1st.  Hubby lost 2.4 and Kaycee lost 5.8!!  We lost over 10lbs together this week!  

Friday, June 3, 2011

Problems with posting comments

I am still having problems posting a comment to anyone's blog!!  Anyone else having this problem?  Ha  guess if you are you cant answer my post!  Oh well - if you can post a comment and you know what's going on please let me know!

Getting to the November Goal

I need to figure out a way to see my goals more often.  I also need to set some more short term goals.  I don't want to over load myself but I do best when I am working toward something.  I don't even have a reward picked out for my next goal. 
I have a long term goal of losing an average of 1lb per week until my birthday - which is ON thanksgiving this year.  That will put me in the 150's and I can not even imagine that!!  I did some calculating this mornig and I am on track right at an average of 1.25 loss per week.  This includes my initial "big" weight losses so I have to really get going if I am going to keep this average up.
I welcome any ideas of how to keep the goals in front of you.  And any reward ideas!

Thursday, June 2, 2011

Thank Goodness for those extra points!

Had a great day yesterday with my sister and her boys.  I just love it when they come out.  But I had a hard day eating within my points.  Just kept wanting more than I should have..  I usually use about 5-10 of my extra points each day - I just cant seem to stay within my 29 allowed!!  So by 8 - 9 pm I was still wanting something.  I had already used 5 extra points.  My husband says, in a kinda  na na na voice (at least thats how I heard it), "Gosh, I am just having trouble eating all my points each day this week - yesterday I had 5 left over and today I've got 14".  I wanted to slug him!!  Nicely of course...  Anyway - so he's eating his little skinny cow ice cream and watching tv and I am sitting there just trying not to get up and go get something.  I guess I could have had fruit...  :-(  blah!  I did well - sorta,  I didn't have any thing but a couple of bites of Kraft Mac 'n Cheese that I was making for my son.  Yes at 9pm, he had been at work and then church.  So I finally went to bed thinking, I'll just go to sleep.  Well at 1:30am I wake up and I cant stand it no longer, my stomachs growling and I go have a nutrigrain bar and a cup of FF milk...  I know eating that late makes me feel ick in the morning but it helps me sleep.  And sleep I did after that.  I feel kinda icky now though.  So I don't know whats up with all that.  

I did get on the scales though - my scales always are about 4-5 pounds off.  I had been weighing about 184 ish on them.  Today, I am down to 180 and I even saw for a brief second 179!!  whooo hoooo!  So I am motivated to do better today. 

I am learning somedays are just like the one yesterday and you do the best you can do and THEN YOU DON'T GIVE UP!  You will get there if you don't quit!!   someone said that recently and it's stuck with me.   So thanks whoever said it!!  

Today I am off to clean a 6 hour house with Laura - we get lots of activity points today!  And then we go get our large diet cherry coke at Sonic.  mmm  cant wait!