What really matters...

Getting ready for my sons Graduation Party.  We sent out over 100 invites.  We are having it the day before Fathers Day so I am not expecting a lot of people.  But I don't know for sure!  I tend to overdue on everything from cleaning before hand to the food.  I am trying to just get the things done that really matter.   Just need to figure out what those things are.   My husband is power washing the deck..... I did not ask him to do this..... not too sure this is one of those things that matter...  do you hear the sarcasm?  It's fine, though,  if he wants to do that, whatever.  We have such different ideas of what is important and I am trying to realize that for some reason POWER WASHING the deck is important to him.  :-/

I am doing fair this week on my eating.  I think after Saturdays great loss and meeting some big goals I sort of let myself off the hook for a few days.  I really loved the Reset button that Kimberlynn talked about and have used that "thought" several times this week!  Thanks Kimberlyn, I would have posted a comment but well.. you know this thing isn't letting me. 

I did weigh on my scales today.  MY scales say 179 (YAY, below 180) which actually means more like 174 - 175.   It's a small  huge victory to be below 180 on my scales.  I am getting some what nervous about the next few weeks because this is where I quit before.  I want to believe that this time is and will be different. And, already, in a lot of ways it is. 
This blog thing has been huge for me.  To read all y'alls blogs and know that you guys have dealt with a lot of the same issues as I have and you are succeeding - that is a huge motivator.  So that is one of the biggest differences this time.  I have some very close friends who do encourage me but you guys are "like" me.  I relate so well with what y'all are going through ( except for that walking thing ).  To see that you have bad days (weeks) but you don't quit.  I am so very thankful for y'all being honest!! 
I also realize that my head is changing too.  What really matters is that I am getting closer to accepting that this is the way I need to eat for the rest of my life and I am slowly - very slowly - coming to grips with that.

I really need to set some new goals and rewards.  So I think I will start working on that!