This morning was rough! As my friend Terry said, "One of those pure discipline days"! There are 2 spin classes on Friday. One at 5:45am and one at 7:15am.
My husband had the alarm set to go off at 5:15am so I could get up and go. He has the alarm set to "CRICKETS".... So at 5:15 the crickets start chirping... ugh.... I just cant get up and make myself go this early!! Turn those blasted crickets off!
So here's the dilemma - the 5:45 class is easier and the 7:15 class is taught by a crazy guy who really works your tail off! what to do???
I thought about just not going at all - I did clean 2 houses yesterday and I went to class on Wednesday. NOPE! I got myself up and I went to crazy guys class and it was a killer. It was a strength class. My legs are done!
But I feel great!!!
(note to self -- remember this feeling, I feel like I could tackle just about anything right now and I feel like really watching what I eat)
I need to remember this next time so that it will help push me through these times when I just don't want to do it.
I am feeling like I have my groove back. It's been a rough couple of months but I THINK I am refocused and ready to do the next 25-30lbs. That's it, that's all I want to lose! It seems like nothing but I know that it is the hardest - well I hear the last 10 are the hardest.. I hope I will be able to say for myself if it is or not.
I have been trying not to be so focused on food. I have been trying to have my quiet time with the Lord and get my focus right. The real focus should be on my obedience to Christ.
BECAUSE --- "Everything is permissible for me" -- but not everything is beneficial.... I will not be mastered by anything".
I Corinthians 6:12
This is what I am holding on to lately. I have been soo mastered by food. It has driven practically my whole life! This should not be. This verse must be the reason I do this. Not to be a size "whatever".. not to worry about what others are thinking of me but to be able to say that "FOOD IS NOT MY MASTER"!
It is so hard for me not to focus on the size/looks issue - it is a constant struggle BUT my God is stronger than my mind and if I am willing to let Him change it -- HE WILL! I am still begging him to give me a "want to" but for the right reasons. I do believe my heart/mind is changing a little....