What a busy time of life! You'd think that when one of the kids moves out and the other is hardly ever home that you'd have more time. I don't know -- I guess I am taking on extra things that I wouldn't have before. Anyways it's been super busy.
I am trying hard to get a grip on all the things that we've gone through recently. In the whole scheme it seems silly that I've let this stuff get to me so much. I have been having the hardest time with getting older! I think I am down right depressed about it. I also think that since my routine has been so changed that not taking my anti-depressants has not helped me much. So in the last couple weeks I have been doing better - some...
I am just so sad that that part of my life, the part where the kids were small, is over! It makes me just cry every time I think of it. Am I the only one???? I am an emotional mess when it comes to this subject!
I really am glad that Ty is moved out. It is a good situation and he is doing well and loving his life. I still have Kaycee at home but she is so independent and wants to stay on the go constantly! I don't want Ty back home, I know this is what is best for him.
Kaycee is really maturing and that is a good thing. She is gaining a lot of self confidence and growing in the Lord. As is Ty...
SO WHAT IS MY PROBLEM!!!??? I guess it's just change - big change and it seemed to happen so quick and all at once. I tend to focus on the past and what I don't have now. It would be good if I could change that. My friend tells me I just need time.
In the midst of all that we stopped going to WW. It was so early on Saturday morning and another time together did not work - so we are going to try to continue on our on. Hmmm, not sure how that will work out. So far, I have put back on about 5 lbs.
I'm not going crazy with eating but it's a bad time of year to try to lose! I started doing bad at WW when Alan started going. I don't like competition too much. I think I just kind of gave up when he started losing. That's something I need to look at - what's up with that?
I don't want to be sooo focused on food and with WW you have to be. At the same time if I am not focused then I tend to eat too much. AGH... what to do!!
Well that's all the time I have to ramble!! Gotta get my day going!
